Moved to Stockbridge a few days ago to work for the summer as the sound engineer for Berkshire Theatre Festival. My interns are cool, the people are cool, I’ve been socializing and drinking already…and running. Oh boy this is so different from city running. Much more nature-y and very hilly.
I think is is going to be a good summer. But it’s lazy so far, not much t do until I know what designers need, we get in equipment, etc.
Heyyyy Everyone. My it’s been a bit sense I posted.
Proud o’ my lil self. I had a while where I lacked motivation and slept all the time. But I am bouncing back! I just spent the past two hour reviewing the rental package for my summer stock, looking up equipment specs, etc. Breaks taken: 1 pee break. Facebook break taken: 0!!!!!! Yeah me. =]
Oh and it was gorgeous today. I went running in the city. Ran from Mass Ave to Haymarket—with some detours it ended up being 4.09 miles. Not great, but I am making fast progress after this winter!
Hm, haven’t posted on here in awhile. What’s been happening:
~Quitting the Sbucks in about 5 weeks. Wee. Then just doing theatre May-September…and we’ll see where it goes from there.
~Making my website! Should be pretty baller. Need to finish it in time for the Regional Enterntainment Production and Administrative (REPA) job expo in 9 days. Weee.
~Getting more work, even turning stuff down. New England Conservatory called me (read: I did not apply!) and offered me a gig I unfortunately could not take. But they are keeping me in mind. So September is looking good.
~Chilling out a lot. Maybe way too much lately.
The one thing really bothering me?
~I’ve totes put on weight. First thing in the morning, I weigh 124 lbs. At the end of the day, I tend to go up more towards 128. Yuck. Not good for some one my height and I am legit feeling self conscious because of it. It’s been too gross or cold to run and I was sick for a bit, and Starbucks does not help. Blah. I also realize that when I buy a bag of chips, I shouldn’t eat the whole damn thing. So now I need to get my ass in gear and get into shape. Goals: get down to 122 by REPA. Down to 120 by the time I’m doing Passing Strange. 118 by the time I lave for BTF. That’s 6 lbs. in 2 months. Don’t feel like it’s unrealistic. In fact, it’s pretty minimalistic, but I have always had a hard time getting below that so i realize it will take extra work. But I have to make serious changes. And if I set goals in accordance to life events I feel like I am more apt to meet them. So here’s my approach for the next couple of weeks:
Week One. Cut the following from my diet: lattes, pastries, and all foods from work, and potato chips and fries. (…Weeehh.) Also reintroduce an exercise routine.
Week Two. Up the ante on exercise routine. Eat mostly protein and veggies. No eating between meals. No alcohol.
Week Three. We’ll see…Keep on keepin’ on I guess. I might actually give up booze for two-three weeks. Hopefully this works!
Hands down, I need more portfolio work. But as a designer, I am used to working with scripts. So with out a script, I am lacking inspiration. This is where my friends come in. Give me an object, a place, a story, a season, a poem, a color, WHATEVER, and I will create a sound for it. All I ask is that you don’t give me something like “LOVE” or “EXISTENTIALISM.” Too abstract. But give me ideas, and I shall go nuts.
Re-posting a composition I had from a while back. Totes re-worked it, and I think it sounds pretty god. Would you all mind giving me some feedback? (Generally a bad thing in audio…HAH. Get it?) Let me know if anything is jarring, and how you react to it emotionally. I would sure appreciate!
Saturday:Parental Moon Units in town—bought me lunch, milled about Harvard Square. Polished off with a night in watching Arrested Development and eating cookies and drinking white russians. Oh, and beers.
This is the way life should be. Also, between having beer bought for me on Saturday, my father buying lunch and a new book for me, and my roommate making me cookies and drinks, I LOVE MEN.
Amedendments to Reduce or Possibly Eliminate Funding for the National Endowment for the Arts.
Three amendments have been introduced to the FY 2011 that would have a very negative impact on funding for the NEA. Two amendments offered by Rep. Garrett (R-NJ) and Rep. Mack (R-FL) would completely eliminate funding for the NEA. The third amendment, offered by Rep. Walberg (R-MI), would reduce funding by a whopping $20.5 million. Here’s what I wrote—I am awful at letter writing and probably sent a very ineloquent letter. At any rate, you should take action too!
As your constituent, I urge you to vote against the amendments to H.R. 1 (Full-Year CR) offered by Rep. Garrett (NJ), Rep. Walberg (MI), and Rep. Mack (FL) that seek to reduce funds or terminate funding to the National Endowment for the Arts.
I am a sound designer and engineer for theatre. I have found a sense of belonging and community no other career option has given me. I strongly urge you to vote against this bill on behalf of people like myself. People who are talented and happy in doing what they do and can only apply their skill in the arts. To weaken the NEA would weaken chances many talented artists have to pursue a career in what they love. Many people land careers in what they love to do—musicians in music, writers in journalism, visual artists in graphic design, etc. Why limit career options for the visual and performing arts? It may sound simple and perhaps a touch naive, but I am a firm believer in the pursuit of one’s dreams and personal happiness; shouldn’t we all have a chance to make a living doing what we love?
For those of us who do not make the art but observe and enjoy it, it offers us a sense of both release and awareness to the world around us. To see a show or an art exhibit gives a feeling similar to that of watching a movie (albeit, in a very different way). Depending on the piece, it may offer a message or commentary about the world around us. It might provide an escape—it is something to do or observe while we forget or day to day lives. Theatre and art do this by telling a story and by carrying us to a new world that is not out own. It has the ability to do this in a very real way that is unforgettable, even hours after we experience it. The beauty of art is that it can make us aware about the world around us and yet make us forget it, even if only for a couple of hours.
The arts in schools is another necessity. It is as important as history, society, math, science, physical education, literature and languages. The arts combine all of the above in a form of self-expression. To weaken or remove the arts in schools is to take away a chance for children to express themselves and develop their personalities.
What one sees when they watch a show or look at visual art is some one’s personality, or a collaboration of personalities. Art is an expression and celebration of individuals. It is our individual personalities that makes the human race a beautiful thing. To reduce or terminate funding to the NEA is to remove accessibility many people have to careers as well as self-expression.
In this letter I have stated how the arts offer both awareness and an escape and why they are important as a form of self-expression. It is for these reason that I urge you to vote against the amendments to H.R.-1 that seek to reduce or terminate funding for the National Endowment for the Arts. I thank you for your time.
So between wearing them 18-24 hours a day, sleeping with them in, and not changing them for 4 months at a time, I have abused my contact lense privileges. Bad Gilly! It appears I have developed a mild NON-CONTAGEOUS conjunctivitis dues to contact lense abuse. I have been instructed to throw out my contacts and eye make up and not wear any of the above for two months. As in, I have to be ugly for two months. Well there go my chances of getting laid…say what.
For the rest of today I plan on working out, cleaning, and working on my website. Because if I am going to be ugly I am at least going to be productive.
Hellooooo the big wide world of consistent employment.
At least late May-Early September.
You’re looking at the sound engineer for Berkshire Theatre Festival, ladies and gents. I get housing, as well as decent pay for summer stock. Oh, and I am a department head. I get to work with designers and I have INTERNS! Oh, and did I mention the best bonus: Doing what I love for a solid four months! And getting aid for it!
You Don't Go for Music Do You? Well It Goes Like This: the 3rd, the 4th, the 5th.
Mixed the show very well tonight. Levels and pickups where great. But I can’t help but wish I’d been on my A-game before tonight. Doesn’t seem like it should have taken me so long to get it to sound good. Not that it’s sounded bad. It just hasn’t had baller status. Well. C’est la vie. I guess.
Soooo I started the Jillian Michaels 30 Days Till a SHREDDED BODYYYYY. It’s kind of fun. Consider it a Gillian/Jillian faceoff every time I work out. But dude, that title is ridiculous. You know what else is ridiculous? The liquid (but not-so-liquid) diet I’m putting myself on for 2-3 days. Today I’ve had coffee, water, tea, 2 celery stalks, and 2 Tbsp crunchy peanut butter. And I’m not starving! Weird. Well it’d be really unhealthy to keep this up too much longer. Thinking of doing it once a week, and eating mainly vegetables and protein on days in between. Part of my plan to better myself inside and out. I need a scale though.
Look. I’m complicated. I suck at self expression, and telling people when I’m upset. I even suck at showing it. I am an introvert. I was brought up to think that the way I felt was always wrong.
With that said, thank you.
Thanks to my friends for showing concern. For not judging me for putting my feelings up on the internet. (Ha, because we all know THAT was ridiculous.) Thank you for saying, “Are you okay?” And, “Fucking call me already.”
Thank you for being your wonderful selves.
It’s a new day. My journey to become a better person continues.
I think any kind of precipitation makes me depressed. Today I don’t want to move and feel…Well, gross and fat. Which is something else I could piss and moan about for hours on end. But what good does that do.
It’s one of those days when I am really. really. excruciatingly bored with the way I look, feel, and live my life. But lack the motivation to change anything.
I am working for a new theatre, a pretty well known one in Boston. And tonight, I mixed the show very well for some one that JUST took over. Maybe it’s not something I should take pride in, I should be able to handle what ever type of intense curveball is thrown my way, but I did comparatively well in my role this afternoon.
My runner’s goal has been to run 10 minutes a mile. Tonight my pace was 9:30 a mile. YES.
I made a new friend. Maybe. Which is cool. Could use some one else to talk to or drink with.
I’m prone to being insecure. To let lack of confidence get in my way of doing a good job or having the right attitude. But in moments when I really am myself, I stop and think, who was that chick. She was really cool. I want to be her friend.
Then I realize, it feels much stranger lately to be the other, insecure dumb chick.
Today was a good day.
Side note: Edited the shit out of the audio clip I put up. Putting finishing touches on it tonight and tomorrow. Betcha can’t wait. Thanks to those who gave great criticisms. I appreciate your honesty and enthusiasm. =]
Playing around with composing. Here’s one I did today! Wee!
Please, feel free to rip it apart. Niceness is not necessary, but if things to work well, I’d like to know they do and why. Other than your own criticisms, here are questions I have:
1. The transition from one part to the next. How is it?
2. In the second part, the piano melody gets kind of off at one point. This was unintentional, but I kept it because I liked what it did for the piece. Does it work, or does it sound amateur or make the piece weak?
3. Again, the piano melody. Too repetitive? Or does it work?
Considering my background, or lack thereof, I am actually kind of proud of this. But I’d rather hear that it sucks if it really does! =]
Had my first guitar lesson today! So much fun. May have found a new favorite hobby. As a newb, it feels like a total achievement when you strum those six strings just right. (I know, totally just opened up myself for hilarious innuendoes. Don’t start.) Anyways, I love it. Definitely already practiced for 45 minutes on top of my hour long lesson today. Even learned some bar chords. Ow.
Next two days wil be spent working at New Rep. I will not miss baristadom.
So it hit me: When you read a blog, a real person wrote it. Go figure.
Wait. Hear me out. I’m getting close to not sounding dumb here.
When you read an article in the newspaper, how often do you stop and think, yo, some one wrote this? We don’t do it with books and plays so much because there are qualities to each author’s storytelling that makes us recognize it as their style. In article writing there may be a style of writing specific to the journalist but as readers, we are focused not on enjoying ourselves but on obtaining information. Does this make me as a reader forget to recognize that some one actually writes those? Does that style, that is the way of just simply writing down information for the sake of delivering it…Is that style of writing reflected in blogs? That may be why when I read a friend’s blog afterwards I recognize who wrote it and it feels…surreal. Just so weird to hear from a friend, but not in conversation.
Yes, all this ramble because I read a friend’s blog and said, “That’s right. He did write this.”
Maybe intelligence evaded me here anyway. On that note, going to go play Zelda. First guitar lesson tomorrow!
New year, new blog. I have never believed in new years resolutions, but all of my friends’ resolution-making got me thinking. What would I do to change myself? Well, lots. I am on a constant journey to become the person I want to be, and isn’t it time to share it? This will be the heart on my sleeve. And without further ado, my not-new-years resolutions:
1. Run. It’s the one thing I know I can do better than at least some others, and it’s my release.
2. Get into better shape. Time to stop pissing and moaning about how I look.
3. Learn guitar, and also as many other instruments as humanely possible. Just fucking do it already.
4. Stand up for myself. Because I have a voice and it’s impotant.
5. Get my name out there enough so I can live comfortably enough making money in doing JUST what I want to do. And nothing else.
6.Lastly, take a pill. As in, chill the fuck out already. Steps to take when I am stressed or nervous or lacking confidence:
Let myself be angry. Curse out my frustration or take a run. Any way to release bad energy.
Take a moment to tell myself it’s not as bad as it seems.
Learn from every experience so there are less mistakes next time, if any. Strive to be better.
Apply this strategy daily. Because to err is human, and god knows we make millions of mistakes every day.