The original intention of this blog was so I could personally track things I want to change about myself and my progress in those changes. And to share all that jazz with strangers over the internet. So they could encourage me and read every achievement I make in awe, and then I’d be some example for all humankind…Like the Mother Theresa of blogs. Or some noise like that.
Well truth be told, I’m 25 tomorrow and I still have 10,015 things about me that could be way, way better. I snap at people unintentionally (though that’s gotten better). It’s hard for me to focus and retain information unless I’m told more than once. I crumble under pressure—when people intimidate me instead of rising to the challenge I let it affect my work negatively. I have trouble making friends. I’ll start new friendships by acting totally awesome then inexplicably become oddly introverted. And I lack confidence—which is probably really the root of all this. What sucks is, I love what I do. And all of this is keeping me from moving forward.
I’m not getting any younger but my lack of maturity is super discouraging.
Sorry for the downer blog today, dudes. But that’s what comes with a blog about some one who wants to change for the better.